Be a better me.

Just like what the title indicates,

i'm finding the real me.

Recently, i was so engrossed reading a English book
entitled "Think Positive."
i hardly reading English book for such a long period

enjoying inspirational and motivational stories

with little favorite songs

it really makes my day!:D

*ya,and there's only few more days to go for my exam,oh my gosh i nearly forget that*

"Very often a change of self is needed more than a change of scene."

One of my favorite quote in the book

it's actually just few simple words yet we used to forget the meaning beyond the words

i, myself who used to have a strong, independent outlook

actually used to rely on my love ones much than i expect

i gonna start learning the true meaning of  being independent

i can still enjoy being alone instead of sticking with the love ones

sometimes even drew me away from friends and the real me

ya.i hate it,really yucks!

i have what i wanna pursue,

my living style,my hobbies, my dreams :)

ermmm!instead of using the word 'alone'

i think the phrase 'enjoy getting along with my soul and spirit' is more appropriate yea.

Crash down//Cry out

Now i only realize how great the impact of IT technologies nowadays on us,i mean the young generation.

Yup, my phone loss, my entertainment loss and i LOST!

i had a terrible emotionally sick throughout these days

no eat. 

no play. 

no study.

no sleep.

Ya, he's right i used to live with my phone

my only entertainment is only my phone

no others at all!

When this incident happens,it triggers out my stress that i kept for periods

all of them out at ONCE!

life totally SUCKS*mentally crash down*!

i don't feel like wanna flashback how my phone get stolen here
just feel lucky and blessed that i'm alright although there's a little trauma there

Thank god for telling me how bad my lifestyle is for the past few years!

So, I'm now changing...

to be a better me or kinda healthier in other words.

trying out playing balls, strolling around, playing piano...

it WORKS!

Thanks for my lovely friends who spend time accompanying me throughout these days
and also the one who understands me that always stay with me
kinda let me forget about the sadness and stay away from the negatives

Thousands appreciations.

Be the happy bananananananana! :D

Just married.

14th FEB-uncle's wedding day.

and here's some photo sharing.

stay happiness💏

MESS UP.

awful projects pbs

unstoppable homeworks

endless tuition classes

household little chores ...

make me really suck for tonight!

i do nothing

but cry.

i wanna have a little rest.

Compile my 2014 resolutions!

1. Practise healthy lifestyle.

Actually it's quite hard for me to implement those 'sleep earlier,wake up earlier' life routine,especially on the weekends(friday and saturday).Although those stacks of projects and homeworks make me almost impossible to make the resolution true but i'll try my very best to organise a better time management.And that's freaking important to me.

2.Step away from the scale
Keep fit,in other words!Avoiding supper is pretty hard for me,so i'm now to start practising to have a healthier diet and certain exercises too.Have more vege and fruits.Workout for at least 30 squats per day.Drink more water.And keep going!Sincerely,i hope that it works!

3.Read more
Read at least 1 or 2 English book(fiction,non-fiction,newspaper whatever do help in English) per months.Work hard to improve and enhance my English level(blogging help bit by bit also,i believed that) as i gonna sit for my Malaysia University English Test(MUET) paper in the coming July and i hope to strike for a Band 5.But i actually pretty weak in grammar and vocab,so,follow teachers' advices-READ!

4.Keep the room clean
It's freaking tough for me to accomplish this simple task especially during exam seasons.As you enter the room,you can feel like you're in the World War II. Papers and books cover my bed,table,chairs....in short,it's an eyesore indeed!These situation has lasted for years,and i know that's a bad habit,yet i fail to curb for it.The only resolution for this 'resolution' is PERSEVERANCE.

5.Be grateful.
Appreciate the single moments with friends and family.They'll leave someday,or probably I,myself.I feel contented to have my sisters(from primary school till secondary school best friends) and some of my secondary school best friends.Although they've leaved for their studies,but we still have some gathering when everyone is back.As for the present,i enjoyed myself to mingle around with my 6th form bestie(left about one year).So,make the days count instead of counting the days left.

6.Strive for the best in STPM
This.Is.A.BIG.One.I gonna finish my one-and-a-half year 6th form studies in this year.For my expectation,i don't think i did my 1st term exam well,so i plan to have a retake for it.For the coming 2nd and 3rd term exam,i'll try to excel for a better grade.It.Is.A.MUST!

回顧 貳O壹叁之拾

想趁2013還沒結束前，以反思回顧的方式為它來個簡短的小總結:D

1.不幸中的幸運幸運中的不幸服了三個月兵役!

2.慶倖在服兵役的日子里有三個忠實夥伴愛麗樂添子彬的陪伴

3.幸運認識了了開朗正面積極噼里啪啦的愛欣

4.彭亨佛教會，永權老師，哈哈哈哈哈哈哈师傅,讓人生有了新的认知

5.驕傲得到了一張anugerah的文憑，但讓我得到更多是成為了kem tasik chini人人皆知的tamtam

6.ankeuke-享受工作品尝咖啡的好地方，還有，我的第一把乌克麗麗

7.中六新生活。新朋友。張瑪荔的大同學愛，空空的小小女人，玲玲的開朗勇敢，佩琪的天使美女，哦妮的長髮飄逸，啊朴安的搞笑小慧，國陽的多手多話，余曹全的依光洙，都讓我的中六超級快樂的！

8.中六那該死的課業壓力！

9.三度與朋友們背包旅行-愛麗欣瑛家馨吉隆坡，子彬斯進國健文馨馬六甲新山，瑪荔空空國陽新加坡！

10. 2013幸福擁有了很多很多煩人但又常伴我左右的朋友讓我今年一整年都不寂寞!

愿:2014幸福安康。

A little tears

ya,no doubt 

there's only left 2 weeks for my sem 1 final

so far yet so near.

first time not having the exam on the actual date 

because i'm being selected to go for the damn kursus for PA

feel like awful to have the replacement trial exam in bilik guru

what i can conclude is just as noisy as market

how i gonna be concentrate to read,analyse and write out

standing up,spamming the table,giving a shout all come my mind 

all just sucks!

yet,the result come out 

fell totally depressed when i get my pa results

tears rolling around eyes

how i gonna have this kind of results!!!

all of a sudden,i feel guilty in the sense that letting down my mom

by the way,i just keep in silence for the whole period

how bad i was...