Be a better me.

Just like what the title indicates,

i'm finding the real me.

Recently, i was so engrossed reading a English book
entitled "Think Positive."
i hardly reading English book for such a long period

enjoying inspirational and motivational stories

with little favorite songs

it really makes my day!:D

*ya,and there's only few more days to go for my exam,oh my gosh i nearly forget that*

"Very often a change of self is needed more than a change of scene."

One of my favorite quote in the book

it's actually just few simple words yet we used to forget the meaning beyond the words

i, myself who used to have a strong, independent outlook

actually used to rely on my love ones much than i expect

i gonna start learning the true meaning of  being independent

i can still enjoy being alone instead of sticking with the love ones

sometimes even drew me away from friends and the real me

ya.i hate it,really yucks!

i have what i wanna pursue,

my living style,my hobbies, my dreams :)

ermmm!instead of using the word 'alone'

i think the phrase 'enjoy getting along with my soul and spirit' is more appropriate yea.

Crash down//Cry out

Now i only realize how great the impact of IT technologies nowadays on us,i mean the young generation.

Yup, my phone loss, my entertainment loss and i LOST!

i had a terrible emotionally sick throughout these days

no eat. 

no play. 

no study.

no sleep.

Ya, he's right i used to live with my phone

my only entertainment is only my phone

no others at all!

When this incident happens,it triggers out my stress that i kept for periods

all of them out at ONCE!

life totally SUCKS*mentally crash down*!

i don't feel like wanna flashback how my phone get stolen here
just feel lucky and blessed that i'm alright although there's a little trauma there

Thank god for telling me how bad my lifestyle is for the past few years!

So, I'm now changing...

to be a better me or kinda healthier in other words.

trying out playing balls, strolling around, playing piano...

it WORKS!

Thanks for my lovely friends who spend time accompanying me throughout these days
and also the one who understands me that always stay with me
kinda let me forget about the sadness and stay away from the negatives

Thousands appreciations.

Be the happy bananananananana! :D

Just married.

14th FEB-uncle's wedding day.

and here's some photo sharing.

stay happiness💏

MESS UP.

awful projects pbs

unstoppable homeworks

endless tuition classes

household little chores ...

make me really suck for tonight!

i do nothing

but cry.

i wanna have a little rest.

Compile my 2014 resolutions!

1. Practise healthy lifestyle.

Actually it's quite hard for me to implement those 'sleep earlier,wake up earlier' life routine,especially on the weekends(friday and saturday).Although those stacks of projects and homeworks make me almost impossible to make the resolution true but i'll try my very best to organise a better time management.And that's freaking important to me.

2.Step away from the scale
Keep fit,in other words!Avoiding supper is pretty hard for me,so i'm now to start practising to have a healthier diet and certain exercises too.Have more vege and fruits.Workout for at least 30 squats per day.Drink more water.And keep going!Sincerely,i hope that it works!

3.Read more
Read at least 1 or 2 English book(fiction,non-fiction,newspaper whatever do help in English) per months.Work hard to improve and enhance my English level(blogging help bit by bit also,i believed that) as i gonna sit for my Malaysia University English Test(MUET) paper in the coming July and i hope to strike for a Band 5.But i actually pretty weak in grammar and vocab,so,follow teachers' advices-READ!

4.Keep the room clean
It's freaking tough for me to accomplish this simple task especially during exam seasons.As you enter the room,you can feel like you're in the World War II. Papers and books cover my bed,table,chairs....in short,it's an eyesore indeed!These situation has lasted for years,and i know that's a bad habit,yet i fail to curb for it.The only resolution for this 'resolution' is PERSEVERANCE.

5.Be grateful.
Appreciate the single moments with friends and family.They'll leave someday,or probably I,myself.I feel contented to have my sisters(from primary school till secondary school best friends) and some of my secondary school best friends.Although they've leaved for their studies,but we still have some gathering when everyone is back.As for the present,i enjoyed myself to mingle around with my 6th form bestie(left about one year).So,make the days count instead of counting the days left.

6.Strive for the best in STPM
This.Is.A.BIG.One.I gonna finish my one-and-a-half year 6th form studies in this year.For my expectation,i don't think i did my 1st term exam well,so i plan to have a retake for it.For the coming 2nd and 3rd term exam,i'll try to excel for a better grade.It.Is.A.MUST!

回顧 貳O壹叁之拾

想趁2013還沒結束前，以反思回顧的方式為它來個簡短的小總結:D

1.不幸中的幸運幸運中的不幸服了三個月兵役!

2.慶倖在服兵役的日子里有三個忠實夥伴愛麗樂添子彬的陪伴

3.幸運認識了了開朗正面積極噼里啪啦的愛欣

4.彭亨佛教會，永權老師，哈哈哈哈哈哈哈师傅,讓人生有了新的认知

5.驕傲得到了一張anugerah的文憑，但讓我得到更多是成為了kem tasik chini人人皆知的tamtam

6.ankeuke-享受工作品尝咖啡的好地方，還有，我的第一把乌克麗麗

7.中六新生活。新朋友。張瑪荔的大同學愛，空空的小小女人，玲玲的開朗勇敢，佩琪的天使美女，哦妮的長髮飄逸，啊朴安的搞笑小慧，國陽的多手多話，余曹全的依光洙，都讓我的中六超級快樂的！

8.中六那該死的課業壓力！

9.三度與朋友們背包旅行-愛麗欣瑛家馨吉隆坡，子彬斯進國健文馨馬六甲新山，瑪荔空空國陽新加坡！

10. 2013幸福擁有了很多很多煩人但又常伴我左右的朋友讓我今年一整年都不寂寞!

愿:2014幸福安康。

A little tears

ya,no doubt 

there's only left 2 weeks for my sem 1 final

so far yet so near.

first time not having the exam on the actual date 

because i'm being selected to go for the damn kursus for PA

feel like awful to have the replacement trial exam in bilik guru

what i can conclude is just as noisy as market

how i gonna be concentrate to read,analyse and write out

standing up,spamming the table,giving a shout all come my mind 

all just sucks!

yet,the result come out 

fell totally depressed when i get my pa results

tears rolling around eyes

how i gonna have this kind of results!!!

all of a sudden,i feel guilty in the sense that letting down my mom

by the way,i just keep in silence for the whole period

how bad i was...

little things!

Here's to sum up some happy moments these days:D

Gathering with my dear lovely sista and friends(working and back from studying in kl)

Time is just not enough for us to snap photos and chit-chat.

No doubt,non-stop laughing indeed.

Appreciated.

Next come up with the kwong kwong's surprise birthday 

the girl who so impressed to me of her cheerful and tomboy-ish character

it is definitely rated to be a success!

Preparation team!

Decorating the room:D

Handmade wishes card by me!

with wanling,preparing BALLOON CAKE :P

caps onnnn!

Girlsss!

dear kacang :P

Love this photo so much!

-sometimes,things change and come to worst

really fed up with those stuff-

宣洩

只能說把自己累成這樣是自己活該

常常在想，我其實和你沒差
死纏爛打該死的壞習慣
那些努力向上的話嘴巴說了一遍又一遍
這樣漫無目的的日子你還想過多久

怪咖。
一個兩個三個？就你一個。
沒有你的日子我過得其實真的有比較好
壞毛病又犯
天生腦袋太悶沒想東想西日子過不下去
在意別人對自己的眼光在意得要命
但現在的心境放寬了許多
學會了不再去在意不再去理會
不然日子活不下去啊

對你。不值得我一說
對自己。只有失望

sums up.

is it such a good competition within each other

genuine faces with scheming minds

such tiring to be get along with the fakers

the world will be simply nice without such asshole.

STOP IT.don't you ever feel tired adorning different appearance.

a great fall?or maybe a great awakening:)

給自己來杯週日特調

讓自己的心情沉澱沉澱吧

對朋友這兩個字的定義和瞭解越來越模糊了

模糊得朋友在那裡我也不清楚了

怎麼一切好像都變得好複雜

离考试的日子十根手指頭也能數了

上了中六發現自己其實也沒什麼

來自各校的強者聚集一堂

競爭得都快讓我喘不過氣來了

最近換了新的朋友群新的環境

不知怎麼的新朋友似乎是面鏡子

我把我自己的缺點看得越來越清楚

也許我不能再那麼過了  喪氣

一直告訴自己好好做回自己就好:)

就這樣平平淡淡地過吧

:)

Bit by bit.

finally i gotta allocate a little time for my blog 

after my busy busy school life @x@

everything just takes time

takes time to accept it

takes time to get used to it

takes time to find out the beauty of the changes

make new friends ?yup,definitely!

enjoying of sharing little by little parts of our past 

and strive for our future together

chit-chatting during recess time , having lunch together after school

laughing loudly all around like no else there in the midnight in mamak stall

it's the little things makes up the awesome relationships and memories:)

sad case

exam crash with my birthday

okay...birthday wishes:hope to score a good result /_\

hey!gotta stay strong and keep moving on,friends!:D

Hearing the Worst.

there will be an answer let it be

today comes a big change.

4 of my besties left me

3 of them maybe transfer to other school 

and 1 transfer to another class

since i entering my form 6 life,they are the one who always be my side,

sharing all the enjoyment with me,making my monotonous school life splendid!

now they are all leaving...

wondering how i gonna cope this...

missing those times with you guys so much

i being teased by you guys and joke around...

sharing food, having mcd breakfast and lunch together...

those memories were just can't simply be expressed in words 

"can you guys just stay with me?" 

but i couldn't say it, i understand

there's no one gonna accompany you till the end of life but only you

everyone has their own choices and paths

cross my fingers and pray for you.

yup,i'm not gonna blessed you guys

i will just stay at here and work hard

yup,maybe it seems like sarcastic but actually it's kinda motivation

because that's no point for blessing 

instead of that working hard together in different school
 prove our decision and rate our achievement a success!

stay strong and try to adapt for it from now
no one gonna take turn with me driving to school
no more lunch together
less jokes,less laughter.

if you don't like something change it

if you can't change it,change the way you think about it

H.O.P.E-hold on pains end!

-i'm here blogging in english again :P

gotta practise to improve my level of english to sit for my MUET-

1.

Started my Form 6 school life in STK for a week ago

trying hard,adapting the environment and life in school days

nothing's more changes compared to secondary school

it's just i become more independent and deligent now, it's considered as a fact not a claim only! :P

2.

daily life-

wake up and make breakfast by my own

drive to school and tuition by my own

busy doing homework,solving brain-exploding physics question

busy having lunch with friends with super duper hungry looks after lots of activities in school

busy trying my very best to keep myself awake during lecturer classes

love to keep myself busy and tiring rather than rest idly around! :D

3.

lovely subjects-

OMG!damn hard!

oppsss,in another word how challenging they are! -,-

gonna try my best and strive for it

i have to prove that,making my hypothesis a YES

being contented,enjoying the life i'd having now :)

4.

tiring...

life is about change

sometimes it's painful,sometimes it's beautiful

but most of the time it's both.

Hakuna Matata!

1

明天就是開學的大日子了

沒什麼需要特別準備的吧我想

在這個假期里過著墮落的生活?

看戲睡覺喝茶旅行       心想過了這樣的假期我也該滿足了吧

腦海裡渴望著儘早開學過過忙綠充實的生活

心底裡卻想硬抓著美麗動人的假期不肯放手>///<

矛盾啊。

2

一，二，三位原先一起升上中六的朋友

在還沒開學就走了      印證了計劃的確永遠趕不上變化啊

走了   去打工了?   去另尋他處讀書去了?

一位學姐，她是這麼說的，

“說真的，要是你現在給我選擇換科系，我想我還是會繼續往前走。這條路會很難，很累，很壓力，我懂。但是你看，時間過得那麼快，這些很快就會過去了。

我們怎樣都好，都會熬過去的。一定會。”

不是每件事都強求做出正確的選擇，是因為有時候錯誤更能讓人進步。

所以對自己寬容一點吧。

3

共勉之。

愛情裡的壞情緒

情緒來襲總是避也避不了，躲也躲不掉

在愛情里受傷是難免的

所以，選擇那個值得讓你受傷的人吧

喜不喜歡，合不合適，能不能在一起，是三回事。

我喜歡現在的自己，但偶爾偶爾還會懷念過去的我們，那美好的時光。

過了兩年，心裡的不甘，執著的想念，都沒了。留下的只有美好回憶。

想念一個人的時候

也許連自己都不知道想念他什麽。

4

Hakuna Matata

what a wonderful phrase!

源自斯瓦希裡語

嘻嘻是迪斯尼獅子王裡的主題曲哦:P

祝福。大家。

習慣

1

習慣性地有你們在身邊

現在你們都有了生活計劃

看著你們都那麼幸福甜蜜

打從心底祝福你們

2

習慣和這個組合喝茶聊天

重新認識你們每一個

在群組里聊個有的沒的

珍惜跟你們相處的每一天

大家都紛紛走了

你們會走嗎

就算是安南割耳

心裡也會不由自主地小傷心了一下

3

習慣中六的生活將會是接下來的挑戰

其實真的沒有所謂的對與錯的選擇

那條路才是正確的選擇沒人能告訴我
何必要那麼拘謹呢

我只知道路是人走出來的

4

習慣晚上窩在部落格裡

聽著喜愛的抒情音樂

一遍又一遍

把心情亂亂地寫一通

一篇又一篇

恨不得把糟糕的心事統統塞進部落格裡

5

說心事的伴似乎少了走了

習慣    一個人了:)

走!旅行去!

1.心情不好時總是喜歡出外旅行看看外面的世界讓自己透透氣
或是一個人盲無目地地逛街把糟糕的心情到處丟一些

這次也不例外！

2.四張巴士票     五個人抵達馬六甲

在一家歸宿感豐富的sayang-sayang酒店落腳

下午的雞飯粒   

晚上的雞場街    

深夜的馬六甲河

3讓我印象最深刻的應該就是深夜的馬六甲河了吧
深夜一兩點  大家一起騎著腳踏車   我不會騎所以是被載的那個嘻嘻
繞著馬六甲河   享受著美麗的馬六甲夜景
很感謝那兩位載我的你們哈哈
雖然嘴上一直嫌我很重   但是腳上卻使力地踏著腳車
搖搖晃晃的腳踏車    卻換來沒完沒了的話題:D

4摩天輪
無意間看見馬六甲河邊遠遠的摩天輪
大家似乎都不想錯過這個經常在電視裡浪漫出現的建築物
興奮地坐上了傳說中幸福象徵的摩天輪後瘋狂拍照
恨不得把我們的回憶全部都一次性地塞進相機裡!

5 sayang-sayang酒店
性格爽朗的老闆MIKE絕對是這間酒店的一大賣點
98零吉的房間   讓我們我在一起聊個沒完沒了的好地方

叫不醒?

把洗臉霜劑在臉上看你還賴床嗎哈哈!

6兩個女生逛街   三個貼身保鏢
不過還好有點收穫   安慰!滿意!
原先計劃的旅行其實只有兩天一夜
經過一天半來的相處大家誰都不想那麼快地結束這說好的旅行

四點好像有趟去新山的巴士也

ON!

三點半左右離開廣場   往巴士站奔去
到了巴士站大約三點五十多分    買了四點去SKUDAI的巴士
瀟灑果斷地  我們迷迷糊糊就醬去了SKUDAI

7明偉
我們接下來旅程的司機   真的很感謝他
哈哈一個很可愛的朋友很快地就融入進了我們
jio你妹成為我對他的印象哈哈

8 KINGSTON HOTEL 李宗偉兒子開的?-,-
擠成一團    聽著大家的故事
笑聲?歌聲?都分不清楚了
希望你能熬過去吧表步我們的後塵加油了給你李光誅的青色力量哈哈哈
一睡醒竟然看到你!
現在想回來真的很好奇為什麼我當下沒有大喊還是直接滾下床算了

9乜都撈
心願已了唄   wow!看到比自己高了一個頭的芒果冰山
滿足幸福!

10願:這個組合能
一起完成未完成的旅行
一起努力未完成的學業
感謝人生旅程有你們陪伴
不孤單

這是一段秘密的旅程

別人很難了解其中的興奮♥